I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about losing you. I know it was my fault, I know I messed up. I just hate how I feel. I’m so lost, every thing I do reminds me of you. What sucks most about it is that I can’t let go, no matter what I do. Moving on is impossible.. I still haven’t moved the pillow you last slept on in my bed, or the blankets, I still wear your hoodie because it smells like you, pictures of us are still on my wall.. Everything is there. Our memories play over and over in my head, our tickle fights, our play wrestling, cuddling, kissing, holding hands.. So much. And I don’t want to let you go. I love you with everything I am. You are literally my soul mate, I just want things to work between us. I want you to be the girl I spend the rest of my life with, I see my future with you. I just hope and wish that someday you’ll see that. And know that I love you with all my heart.. You’re my everything, my world. I love you Amber Anne Hilt, for as long as I live.